So many articles seem to be focused on rebuilding in regards to infidelity. Rebuilding your marriage, rebuilding the relationship, rebuilding yourself.
**Disclaimer I am in POL**
Fuck you motherfuckers!! Is all I can say to that. Rebuild? Bitch I’m still here and I liked myself (okay well I had self-esteem issues who the fuck doesn’t?) before those assholes decided to fuck each other behind Bob and I’s back.
Rebuild huh? so where does the crap marriage go to die, does that include the kids too? Because all 4 of mine are alive and kicking and need breakfast right now.
Where did I off and die to? Because I’m still breathing bitches.. (maniacal laugh inserted) I’m not the same person I was after this happened for sure. But I’m not the same woman who thinks Kaboom is a waste of money and won’t get rid of soap scum either. I’m not fucking rebuilding myself took my ass almost 35 years to get here. I don’t feel like I have another 35 to start over.
And if I could rebuild anything it would be my life. I would have never gotten married, looked at M EVER!! If I could rebuild and start from scratch I would fucking see his ass and run..
Yeah so that word rebuilding doesn’t do a dam thing for me.
But Frenchie’s husband did talk about getting to a new level last night. About levels in marriage and I can identify with that. Also I’m a gamer I like getting to a new level, the next level.
So as M and I prayed this morning. I knew today would be fucked up.. Forgiveness is a process that I read could be an hour by hour choice. I thought I could just say I forgive them and move on.. FML people.. FML..
3. Practice forgiveness every day – maybe even every hour. This is one of the key tips on how to forgive cheating in a Christian marriage, and for improving your emotional and mental health. Your spouse made a mistake, and it tore at the fabric of your relationship – but that doesn’t mean you both have to pay for it forever! To overcome infidelity and rebuild your marriage, you have to forgive him and yourself. Forgiveness is a conscious choice you need to make every day. The more you choose to focus on love, trust, and forgiveness, the easier it gets. And, part of forgiving and reconnecting is learning why your spouse cheated in the first place.
Here’s to choosing forgiveness little by little.. fucking assholes M and S are. If life isn’t fucking hard enough.. Maybe I need to find me some new boyfriends like Katie.. http://theoppositesideofthestreet.wordpress.com/2014/07/07/my-new-boyfriends/