Okay so I told our carpet guy. He was a neighbor of ours and him and his wife are a part of our church family.
I told him the truth I hated M.
It’s more like a silent hate. Like I can do so many of this family life. But I hate him, but it’s like a hate of an acquaintance not a husband of 13 years.
I just don’t have a whole lot of love for the guy.
Anyways so I told M that I told our carpet guy and M asked “So did you tell him you were sticking it out for the long haul?”
Uhh…(thanks Love Dare) because what I wanted to say was
“Come again Motherfucker?”
But I didn’t.. I just said “No.” and then I asked is that what he expects. Does he think I’m at a point of telling others I’m in this marriage for the long haul?
What a loon.. I should never be shocked by what comes out of M’s mouth anymore.
Anyways I elaborated that I don’t see that in my future, I used to but I don’t anymore. I used to be scared of you dying not financially but just emotionally. I wanted him in my life. There is none of that now. I want him here to not have a weekend Dad for the other person who created these beautiful, talented, ingrates to be here all the time helping me out.
And then I was like.. Crap.. Love Dare #1 fail only speak loving words to your spouse..
FML.. so do I have to do the day over again?
Crap.. I guess I’ll ask the other chick that I’m doing this with and I’ll decide.