Well I tried I honestly tried numerous times to ask him if he needed anything for me to help him with his day.
Maybe I’m just not asking correctly.
I asked to kiss him. I just felt like it. I still don’t love him, but when I kissed him tonight I closed my eyes and pretended it was the same guy I used to love. I rubbed my nose against his. I felt his face, his lips, but I knew better the pretending doesn’t last.
Reality kicks in.
We celebrated Rizzo’s 40th anniversary and I was so honored to go. To see 40 years.
It was hard seeing so many ask me how I was doing and I was doing pretty crappy..
Love Dare #5 is ask him what 3 things I do that irritate him.
I’m curious as to what he will say.
I miss my husband, I miss having a love of my life. This guy that sleeps in the same bed as me is so messed up.
I’m so tired of doing this dance with him. He still has such a cowardice trait about him.