So M sent me an email this morning:
Hope you got rested. I’m on my way to somewhere today. Be back later this afternoon.
Hope you feel better today. I love you. Do you know what your plans are for this weekend? Are you still going to Rizzos?
I love you and want to be here for you. My mom texted me last night and we talked for a little while.
Emily got up at 6 and I turned the tv on for her.
So here is what I want to send him back.. but in honor of my experiments. I’m going to post it here and hope maybe my blogger friends can help me edit it to where it’s a bit more respectful.. maybe not but here’s my response.
Thank you for taking care of the kids.My head still hurts a bit.I didn’t want to email you, but I want to obey God and try to respect you.I am at such a point of disappointment in you, our marriage, myself that I wonder if I should stop all communication with you.It’s all the same.I suppose the main thing is I don’t buy that God can restore our marriage.Why?Because I see you as the worst man I have ever met in MY life. I’m sure there are worse men out there worse husbands, but I fell for you, loved you, believed in you.I am confused why God would allow me to be with you. Not that I’m perfect and I sure don’t expect perfection.I am confused why God wants this marriage to work.I don’t know how to be loving and respectful or even believe in you anymore or ever again.I hate that I believed you the first time. I get it your sorry..Well sorry doesn’t cut it.. Doesn’t cut it I was in a friendship I knew something was off but I thought well my husband touched her and made everything weird with hers and her husband, yeah the friendship is supposed to be off.But no it’s because you were already fucking her my husband was her boyfriendAnd I was in a stupid marriage I knew things were off but I believed your lie.I was riding your stupid cock in March in KC and I could see your eyes empty cold and I was like what is wrong here?And it was all because I believed you, and I thought I had a friend..Whatever. you kept me blind.. I hate you for that assume I always will..I hope you don’t come home today, I hope you don’t show up at youthpack your bags I want nothing with this marriage anymore..All I do is come to the conclusion I hate you and I always will..That is what I want to say to you.. but alas it is drivel right?Because our God our family wants us together?But how?? How is this ever going to work?Sure I get it, but NH I’m not that guy anymore.. I’m changing..Well I loved that guy and he dropped me after 10 years like I had done nothing for him..So who the fuck are you?
My husband? Oh yeah means so much to me.. yeah..I don’t know you.. in fact I hate you more now than I did 6 months ago.. fuck you
Good luck with your day.Thanks for letting me know and taking care of the kids.