Triggers are maddening for me.
It doesn’t take much and I’m questioning so much with M (I’m calling him that because I feel like it)
and I’m in a spin..
Why do you want to be with me when you have been so cruel and ruthless??
How do you even know what you want when you can tell me nothing about what exactly made you fall off the deep end so much to self-protect yourself from what exactly?
You pissed away all that you wanted in the first place. Why not own your bullshit!!
Time for bed another day running around with M tomorrow
Good news passed my general knowledge test!
Yup got me an Alaska license now!!
M took us all out for dinner it was fun..
I couldn’t find my rugs that I thought we brought with us and I was going to be ill..
Not just for the fact that I don’t think we brought them but guess what seemed to make our move.
The dam heating blanket that KB gave me long ago..
What the hell is that thing still doing near my presence anything that she has given me has been burned, thrown out, or given away but that dam blanket seems to always find it’s way around.
It’s never on our bed or anything right now it’s in our garage getting tossed around.
It will soon be in the trash..
I miss my friends in Kansas alot today and my rugs..
I miss my old house..
Oh and did I mention M fucking lost my cards from our going away party?? Yeah.. pisses me off so bad..
I hope we find them..
I need to find them..