why when I know I don’t want to have ever shared my husband and nothing can change that
That he will always be a man that has broke my heart
That I want nothing to do with that man
And I am set on divorcing him and I tell him
When I have feel I completely have given up on this marriage
Why then do I not feel happy or at peace?
Why Do I seem to become short-tempered with the kids and just plain cranky??
But when I am not talking divorce when I just don’t remember any hurt or pain and Charles and I seem to be a couple kind of anyway ??
Why am I happy and at peace then the anger comes back or the remembering.. Then was I just being delusional to think I forgot? Or could pursue marriage with him?
Is the relationship I have with Charles worth moving forward with him to keep him in my life?
I say no..
But thinking about him my heart says yes..
Stupid heart shut the fuck up..
Hmmmm maybe I just found my answer…