M and I talked for a few hours last night.
M says our talks are not just talks and have serious implications on our lives. If we are not in each other’s future he feels he has to plan. When I don’t think this or that then he has to act accordingly to that.
My kitchen is a mess, I’m out of milk, and I didn’t work out yesterday.
But I’m not stressed.
The boy goes camping tomorrow for his first trip with his troop.
I have a few ideas I want to look into I how I can try and make as much as my husband and still continue my lifestyle 🙂
I will share those probably tonight.
Anyways our talk last night I can only remember bullet points
- He didn’t need that disgusting part of his life (Not calling KB disgusting) but the way he needed to feel wanted because he’s been without that for year and is fine
- I told him he broke our covenant and my spirit is torn does he feel anything like that.. He went with nothing is whole in my life anymore
- I tell him about my random thoughts about KB and that it sucks and he said he’s sorry and that I can face that pain with him we can face it together.
- I honestly don’t know what the fuck that looks like and that bothers me. Why would I look to him for comfort in that situation he is one of the causes of the stupidenss in my brain.. and I’m supposed to go through that with him.
- I told him if I was dying or became terminal.. I know who I would want by my side.. I didn’t feel I needed to say it woudn’t be you..
- He told me that my blog and reading blogs causees the wound to open up and doesn’t help me. (Nothing new there)
- So I pointed out how is it he can see all that is unhealthy/healthy for me but what is he doing that is unhealthy/healthy?
- He looked surprised by that idea and he said he didn’t know or good question or something to think about.. and this morning I get Happy Friday! I’m heading here today..
The man is a complete mystery
But I guess so am I..
I miss hugging him
Started the choosing wisely bible study again..
Now off to Safeway and Walmart..