So a question definitely always comes up in this study
Does the Word give me reason to divorce?
And I’m like heck yeah it does!! BAM!!..
But in dealing with my children and how the divorce would affect them.
And this is just specifically for my family every sitch is different and yes I said “sitch” I got me some words anyways
My children will be devastated.
Just like I was in dealing with M going to church, pretending he was leading this family in a positive way, pretending he was okay that he was doing the right thing.
It’s so gross.. and I’m an adult I have numerous ways to try and comfort myself with the Great Delusioner..
But the kids? Oh the kids.. my sweet babies that love their family so much. And like I said things aren’t that bad here. Which is almost a red flag in some cases to even say .. but we really look from the outside doing alright.
And on the inside too.
Gosh I still hate him.. I do.. Not all the time but I’m in tune with my SINFUL self and know it but I’m writing down Phil 4:8 and clinging it closely to my heart today.
Thinking about how my children will be affected by divorcing M hurts. Hurts in a different way.
Going to talk with Charles today about the session I did. Wow.. it was tough to read and work through.. knowing and studying what my kids may possibly go through. Because they love their Dad they think the world of him. I have taught them to respect their Father, address him when they are speaking with him, and know he is a final say.
I still have kept that image for them. That their Father loves them. The boy knows his father betrayed us. The pieces will only be put together later and when he finally understands what is Dad did. I hope I am able to help him and comfort our boy.
Or maybe he will just forget and not remember.
Like the girl’s our pastor’s little girl has Jessie’s name. I hope they forget about the first Jessie they met. I hope they never remember.
Time to go make burritos.
Busy evening tonight..
Looking forward to hugging my Dad 🙂 This whole affair thing has given me a whole new appreciation for the people who are authentic..