I think many more people would get divorced if it could happen right then and there.
I know we would be.
We were really set on it last night.
He even went on FB and changed the name. We were on a joint account.
Which is good.. I’m not big sharer anyway..
We made up.
Last night I was fine going to get a divorce, he wasn’t coming to California, I read till I fell asleep then I woke up scared
You guys are going to laugh at me.
I’m still afraid of the dark in some situations.
I fear sharks in pools.. I’m silly..
It’s not a debilitating thing but the fear is there.
Dark basements things like that.
And with the lights on in our bedroom I fell asleep
And I woke up scared.. not sure why but I didn’t want to be alone..
so I went upstairs and asked Charles if he could come downstairs because I was scared and he did.
We woke with 2 girls in our bed.
He says’s he loves me.
I tell him I love him too. I meant it.
I don’t think I could ever divorce him guys but it’s not about that. The flip-flopping around like a fish, not being on the fence but what gets me, or even us to that point?
Do I feel unloved. I must.. I don’t notice it until it’s too late.
Nor does he..
And then we want nothing more than to tear this family apart.. I can’t stand him and he can’t stand me..
I would dearly miss what we have..
Why does it take such drastic measures to get me to remember, to have him see things too?
Not one or the other but the both of us?
We had sex it was nice