So we’re all going to Los Angeles and Oregon together on planes
To Disneyland. to BBQ’s to seeing where their Mom used to spend her summers..
Except I was like 100lbs lighter still a little chunk though.
I want to change.. Not sure how, or have evaluated how I fail. But I want to change and be strong.
Like I used to be.
Dang it these stairs are killing me..
So I tried on a ton of cloths in my dresser and all of them most of them do not fit.
Tis life when you eat mass quantities of things.. and lately I’m not regretting it. I touch my sweet fluffy belly fat and think I’m gorgeous. I see myself in the mirror and smile because every cupcake and sugary sweet I wanted so amazingly much.
But it’s strange changing before all of this went down I would have cried and mentally beat myself up.
But not today.. hopefully not ever again.
Anyways enough of my plumpness behavior..
We are going and I’ve stayed up all night.. Not a good way to start a vacation but I had things that needed to be done like my stinky boy’s camp belongings and his laundry.
We would have came home to the funk if that didn’t get done.
Also I need a shower, shave, and just a moment to chill out..
It’s been packing, preparing, and talking about how effectively to leave the island. I’m glad Charles leaves frequently so we know the ferry schedule and all of that.
I am going to focus on relaxing and doing all I can to make sure my minions are comfortable..
Charles and I seem to be doing okay.
I’ve been joking with him about his affair, or I don’t joke and just mention it.
Me: I hate that I shared you.. it’s so icky
Him: Well what’s this talk about an open marriage then?
Me: Well you checked that box already so your always shared
Him: Oh you all or nothing
Us: Laughing like kids
I want to say I hope we enjoy ourselves..
But the decision lies so much with me it seems and I do have every intention on punching any stupidness in the throat..
Our children are quite fortunate to be able to fly as much as they have been and to see the country..
I will focus on relaxing my shoulders, drinking water and tea.. and chilling the #@^* out and being grateful.. To receive the invitation with new garments, and a peaceful heart 🙂
Literally new garments… LOL!!
Tiil Next time