Prayer petition truly living out my faith.
Yes having Charles be one of my many great mistakes is still difficult to not cry over.
I do realize back in the day this all began I should have left.
Not for good but awhile enough to cry my heart out and grieve..
I thinking grieving has hit me hardest when I know I want another baby.
Doesn’t have to be with Charles per se but I also want a love again.
I know silly me but I do and it’s difficult knowing Charles can give me neither of those things and I get sad.
Because I had babies and a faithful husband about 3+ years Ago and I was discontent having a husband like Charles it’s no surprise now..
I am trying to process my grief Gods will and my future while being kind to myself even when I blame myself for putting me in this situation.
Charles was bad news my fellow soldiers warned me about him and I thought I knew better.
And here I am looking for my future and containing myself and thoughts so I do not cause a Godzilla like whirlwind for my precious babies.
Tonight is difficult I didn’t even know what to pray to God as I cried.
I want to feel loved tonight that I am not alone in building a life with kids but I suppose enough of my pity party going to watch a movie and just chill out.
Til next time