He comes home tomorrow my girls are crying for him on FaceTime
And their mother doesn’t miss him at all.
Nope it’s nice having him gone.
I had a cray day today a busy exhausting day..
And I handled it well I think handling 4 kids and an elderly father and making it all work
I got some down time driving alone in the car and was happy.
Happy it has been beautiful here and
The kids and I have enjoyed ourselves.
Is it strange to wonder what to do with my happiness?
I don’t have to choose forgiveness or anything when I don’t have to see him on a daily basis.
I just focus on me and the kids.
And I wonder so how can I make this happen more?
Or can I feel this way with him being around?
Can I truly be happy and still be married to him even if I don’t want to be?
He told me recently he’s always been a weak person and that makes me sad I always thought him to be strong.
It’s hard knowing who I really married rather than who I thought I did.
Time to work on the house not for him but so my life runs smoother for us all