Yeah that’s me today..
Geesh.. organizing the girls room today and that place is a complete disaster.. Hopefully I what I bought will work and then get to painting..
So doing that..
Feeling better today about my life in general must be the rain, and just reading Scripture in the morning and evening..
He brushed against me a few times and he still feels electric.. is that creepy??
I think it is.. because there is a spark between us.. or maybe because it’s on like 2 weeks sex free..
I can’t tell.. but I held his hand this morning.. and it was nice and touched his foot in bed..
little things I guess.. He didn’t push me away..
I still like the way his skin smells.. or even touching his skin..
I mean let’s take away the fact that he can lie, sex up on a skank in parking lots, sides of highways, and in another man’s bed, in my bed and deceive all that he claims to love.
I still like those things mentioned above which makes me feel like I am no role model to raise my daughters for a moment..
Ahh.. the conflict of dealing with a so called reformed cheater and finding any kind of love and peace with them..
But we all know better I’m the best women to teach my kiddos about honesty and integrity.. because I’m not a little bitch.. (not calling him one now.. but he sure WAS one) and Charles is the one to help teach them what happens when you decide to turn your back on all that you claim to love.
It’s beautiful grey and rainy here..
It’s a chicken soup and fresh bread kind of day..
I can’t wait to cozy up to my babies tonight..