Sewing Bell’s bear
Fixing Emily’s fabric fan
Sewing the boy’s button on his boy scout uniform
Bell got a barrette from a classmate that was broken so I told her I could fix it.. I tore that ribbon off and hot glue gunned the ribbon to a barrette that worked..
Accomplishing the little things.
I pretty much finished the Mark Driscoll book. I don’t want to waste anymore time on it.
I don’t have the mental capacity to try and rewrite what Charles and I stand for or want.
I’m not at that stage.. will I ever be not sure..
But I feel accomplished
Tomorrow I look forward to vaccuuming and mopping my floor..
Planning out how to start making my countertops.
I know it’s accomplishing the little things.
He got home today and we smile at each other. I wish he felt comfortable with me staring at him. Because sometimes I just stare because I think of what I feel when I look at him.
Very rarely is it disgust.. I mean I can get my mind all sorts of worked up but just seeing him after he’s gotten home.
When he serves me pizza.. I know I puttered out on my gluten free and I feel sluggish.. bleh… but so what I had a cheat day..
The headache came after I left my girlfriend’s house who made me cinnamon rolls..
How could I say.. oh you made these for me?? Well I’m gluten free now.. soo..
Sure I could have said a myriad of things to get me out of tasting those sweet buns.. but oh how they were like pillows in my mouth..
And then I was like screw it I’m all about gluten today..
I know I’m going to have to fight the laziness tomorrow as it will kick in..
But I can’t let it.
The more I stay on top of my house the more time I can have with my kids.. just dorking around..
I would like to do that tomorrow
Make origami with my girls..
And that is worth my time..
Thought I might make Zumba but tomorrow is therapy day so no Zumba.. I look forward to trying and making it next week..
Oh and I just opened another book it’s called Breathing or learning to breathe
Comes with a CD and all.. so I’m going to try that before I go to bed.. to unwind..
I’m on page 27 it seems pretty good..
I want to learn to get my body to relax.
Missed my coffee date with God while I pray I stretch as well..
Was visiting with my Dad and picked up his prescriptions..
I find I’m not strongly attached to Charles in seeing him today. I hug him because I think I probably need a hug. I haven’t had physical touch in awhile..
But it’s gone lately.. I don’t really want to touch him, or spend time with him. And I hugged him and we kissed it just felt empty.
It feels awkward but I think this is just apart of this process after affair.
Finding our way with ourselves and then maybe together.
I just got my bible study in regards to The Meaning of Marriage by Timothy Keller
So I will check that out when I go to the library next.
I also want to start reading “My Spouse Isn’t the Person I Married”
Listened to Samoan language YouTube classes while I was sewing..
I’m liking maximizing my time like that..