We are avoiding each other again.
However I texted him I am grateful that we both can smile and laugh. I remember a time where I couldn’t I was too broken.
And I don’t wish that for him or Kendra.
It’s true.. Do I still see both of them as enemies to exact revenge upon sometimes..
But I’m working through that.
I told him maybe one day God will make it crystal clear when we can part ways or why we suffered through being together.
Because we have some pretty amazing kids and yeah they know when Mom and Dad aren’t doing well.
Sometimes I wonder what example we are giving them?
I hope they find a love that truly loves them and doesn’t fall for lust to consider a mate.
I am feeling quite hopeless as to why I have to deal with Charles in my life and why he will be in it always whether divorced or together.
I am resentful today, but not letting that take over. I can still laugh and smile and know God has a plan for my life and while I do not know exactly what that is I will stand firm that I’m doing the best I can to live what I believe.
Show God’s glory through me and shine brightly for my kids and for the world. I don’t know how to help Charles and i have no intention on slowing down for him ever. He’s his own man and no matter what I do or have done his life is his.
Now it’s time to get Squish ready for the bouncy house.
I worked out at Zumba for an hour and 29 min at home on Mon. 4 min. yesterday just doing some exercises.. and last night I found my firestarter to my TurboFire workout program so now I’ll have a routine. 🙂
Every little bit helps me to transform me.
More movement than before that is for sure been tracking my food on Instagram and it’s quite helpful and the people I have been following is the constant encouragement I need.
I also love pictures!!
Well off to get Cray with Squish 🙂
Also I have not had a period since Nov. I’m kind of worried I’m pregnant but how can that happen with vasectomy husband and could I really be that small percentage?? Also I’m random with periods but never this random
Time will tell..
I saw the Dr. cut the lines..
I will buy a test just to be on the safe side anyway..