And no not Charles right now.. Me..
I know don’t fall out of your chair..
But this week Charles has been gone and I’m just fine.
Kids miss him but we move on, have fun without him and are just plugging along.
But can’t really call Squish a kid right now.. is she?
I mean she’s 2 1/2 and all she’s ever known is her Dad being around.
And now he’s not.
And no one even really mentions him. I mean he can’t Facetime during the week and sure we call each other, but not really.
I mean I think there was a few days I just didn’t call. Put kids to bed, we did our thing and went for another day.
Boy, Em, and Bell they get it..
Squish not so much and I didn’t even really think about it until now.
She is the one that runs to her Dad and screams with glee when he gets home.
The other 3 don’t, including me.
Somedays I’m not sure I even want him around.. but you know who does? Squish..
Before affair we used to make a big deal him coming home. I would get excited and the kids would play into that.
Now? Meh? He’s home whatev’s..
But Squish still turns it into a big event..
Anyways so today I was talking to Squish he can Facetime now that he’s back in a city for a bit, but he’s going back tomorrow..
So Squish asks me to play dolls and I say yes, and let’s get your Dad and she says “He has to come back to my house to play dolls”
“He’s not here”
And through the week I have heard her mention her father, but briefly playing dolls or when she’s hurt.
But I’ve just moved on.. never paid any mind.
Until now because I see have seen moments where I think she’s quite lost without him around and she doesn’t know how to feel about it.
I think she thinks he doesn’t want to come back. And he isn’t a part of us anymore.
I also think she feels like she’s been waiting forever.. (it’s been a week), and she’s wondering where he is.
I mean I tell her he’s at work.. but we don’t mention him. The kids and I don’t talk about him, we just do our thing..
And over the weekend where she’s been able to see her father. She’s just been happier.
And I think what has changed. Ahhhh… must be tough on the little squirt.
That her father a great big part of her life is missing and no one cares..
So tomorrow I’m off to talk about her Dad more this week. Tell her how much he misses her and loves her.
Because if it was up to me? Mentioning him above what is necessary seems overdone.
But she seems to need it and I don’t blame her one bit.
Feel bad I never really looked into it until now.
Anyways.. that’s my story for today..
I also watched the Intern what a sad, sweet story..
Great movie.. I would like to buy it.