Learning about yourself is hard work
Growing up being hard on myself it focuses on all that I do
Where can I get better what can I do more of ?
However changing that process is hard
Harder than ever but it needed to happen I knew that before affair and after
I didn’t want my kids following in my footsteps being so hard on themselves
I never told the kids I was never good enough I just think They could feel that out
Or more likely the more I was hard on myself I was hard on my kids
Anyways this more vulnerable side of me getting to know myself is difficult
More difficult than eating a whole cake
More difficult than shopping or distracting myself with the Internet
Ignoring my house, or ignoring my children.
It’s more difficult to say what do I need right now? A break? Some water? To get some fresh air?
What am I feeling?
Been asking myself that a lot lately.
And it’s been working it’s not easy but I feel it’s worth it.
Going to get me another glass of water
Here’s to the adventure