Yes Charles is in that category
With Kendra and numerous other people I think are terrible
Now I’m not saying I want to be BFFs with any of them
What I am saying is it’s darn hard like the French guy who doesn’t hate the bombers who took his wife’s life
That guy I could take lessons from
I think that’s why I adore Christ so much because he could
Even having Judad Iscariot play like he loved Jesus
Jesus knew that little liar snake was among him and didn’t give him up
It was brought to my attention that I was a blessing today
And in that moment I thought how if you cross me I will be nothing to you
And how shallow that might seem
I am many things but a doormat isn’t one of them
In the backburner of things I still hope Kendra and Charles pay
But really at what price?
What would be a good enough price?
Would they have to walk off a cliff?
A pound of flesh?
A lifetime of unhappiness? And if so who is going to make sure that happens?
A boxing match with each of them?
Especially coming from a boxer who had a hard time hitting people but could mess up a bag like nobody’s business😢
All of those things seem foolish
And maybe by loving the unlovable means not thinking about what they are capable of but not thinking about them at all in any context
While I can achieve that with Kendra
Charles is such a different story
He’s been out of town
For the week and I haven’t missed him
I feel like I’m avoiding things
I’m letting life pass me by but I also feel like Im going too fast
I feel like I’m just skim reading my life
I even skim listened to my son and only got half of what he was saying because I wasn’t full there
Not sure what is going on with me
Well here’s to the day and making lunch
Happy Thursday everyone may it be great!