I wanted to be close to Charles
Although I have no idea why today was stressful
The boy’s church camp is costing us way more than we ever thought
My mother is coming
fishing trips cost money
birthday parties not so much.. but still with all the extras
plus budgeting.. ahh.. budgeting..
I was stressed today and well Charles told me not to be stressed and it felt nice..
Like OH SO NICE
Did he mean it though.. did he take on my stress
He’s had long days
And tonight again we barely touched..
Which maybe a red flag but I’m not sure.
We have grown apart, for quite some time now..
I continue to move on.. get better, be better.. not in a I’m not good enough way but to focus, analyze, and find a way that works better for me.
For example not feeling like we have enough money and I’m a failure..
I am not a failure and there is never enough money.
Even for Beyonce, or whoever is richer..
I’m not sure he wants to get better.. He’s still stuck.. I think he shows signs of wanting to be a better human for himself but he’s stuck.
I can’t help him. I always thought I could but I cannot..
I always believed in the amazing man I thought he was.. I think he could be that guy, but I’m not sure he knows how or where to start..
Suppose the only advice I have for him is to start small. But I have no place to give him advice anymore. He’s on his own path and me on mine..
I do pray for him and want what’s best for him
The boy and I finished more magnets
So next business license then off to go market them
They look pretty darn good 🙂
I’ll take pictures once they cure
Oh and it’s finally her BIRTHDAY..
It’s raining so I didn’t get to pull out her playhouse slide.. but I hope it will clear up today