So a supporting role tells Katie
You have raised 3 kids with no nannies, no housekeepers, your life is one desperate episode and still you thrive!
Or she said something like that..
It was funny..
Even thriving being cheated on and having my world completely torn..
Sometimes I feel like some weeping Ophelia..
That will I ever stop talking about it?
The ever tough and cold NH says “We’re better than this we can move on and never speak of this again”
The goth NH says “We shall always speak of the denial we allowed ourselves to be in, to never speak of the tragedy seems to reek of this never happening at all”.
And the the ever growing NH the one who has called out the generational sin in her life and her family’s? The one who has for the past few weeks not lost it on her kids because really her temper and rage is something she has always needed to address..
Just is sad.. I don’t know why.. alot of emotion going on..
Praying for the answers to keep the temper at bay not just about affair but about everything
The eyerolls from the 8 yr old
The attitude from the teenager
The craziness of a 3 yr old
and the good kid as of late.. I feel they get a little left behind because of all the fires we are putting out with the others..
Oh and school..
I still teeter on a C/D grade in Algebra.
I’m behind in 2 classes..
Learning to work with having a family and school and giving myself the grace to do so.
Going to school and family is not easy for me but is doable.
Taking care of myself while doing all of that is the hard part
Making sure I drink water, shower, floss, eat right, exercise, not eat all the halloween candy and laugh.. laugh alot..
I require alot of jolly laughter..
Well that’s the update for now..
Oh one more thing.. so Charles and I are at this banquet for church and youth and it’s a Hula theme. Anyways there was a mural on the wall that looked exactly like the one Kendra had in her house when she first moved in.
Charles at the banquet mentioned it and I said looks just like one someone had in their basement
He said I don’t know what you are talking about..
Oh and I said that’s okay you probably never made it downstairs..
And I had to close my eyes and say.. this will not fuck with me today..
This will not fuck with me tonight..
And had to move on.. ugh..