I keep seeing articles of How to put your spouse first and articles of that sort
And let’s just say
I have that now
Guys he even said he dreamt about me
He has never said that 16 years in
And sometimes when we talk I’d say at least 1/2 it’s all
Hey my beautiful wife
And I’m just over here like Meh…
Also saw the sweetest couple go to Disneyworld for their 10th anni
And I am so jealous
I want what I will never have at least with Charles
Makes me sad not like overtly sad but also turns me into a problem solver
Seeing that even though my marriage is a busted fairytale that it doesn’t have to stay that way
What is important to me?
How do I change my mind about my busted fairytale that will always be busted?
If I stay with Charles I will always be married to an adulterer
However how big am I willing to put that on a scale of priorities?
I mean really I put Charles on a pedestal he never belonged on. I felt lucky I never thought him lucky to have me.
Even changing that perspective of me is difficult and difficult
Why did I dislike myself so much to marry such a man.
And I know I like myself a WHOLE bunch more!
So as my marriage is a busted fairytale that cannot be fixed.
Looking at myself, figuring out what is important to me that is on the table more than anything else😊
And while I miss the romance I used to have knowing staying there does nothing for me and figuring out how to move forward
So I don’t have a love for my husband but what do I have?
A lot of other things
Alright been a busy day off to rest just needed to get that off my chest