Seven years at 1 class a semester
Little disappointed to say the least but it is all mapped out
So there’s that..
Also Charles is so insistent on asking how my day went.
Patient, thankful, kind
Am I being those things?
I remember how judgemental I was to women who were not completely head over heels with their husband
I mean why stay?
Now I know
Ahhh if being in love with your spouse was all it took to run a family
I thought that was worth staying
Nope seeing how happy my family is together
How my son gets very quiet when the word divorce is heard on TV.
He remembers when his family was almost split apart
I am finding there is so much more to life than being married than being in love with your spouse.
I am figuring out how to find love for myself and figure out my daydreams
How I run this family.
How I will gather our children every year as they age because good grief each one comes with their own thoughts and personalities.
Soon I will be explaining periods to my oldest daughter who is 8. Been talking about sex, drugs, parties, and situations with the boy. Squish will be entering Kindergarten next year.
Marc texted me and asked me about Charles and I. I remember being so smug talking about Charles and telling him I still haven’t figured things out. He said you sure are taking your time. And I said I will take as long as I want 20 years if need be!
I wonder if Charles is willing to wait that long or if he’s just like me when it comes to our situation financially it’s nice what we have. And our kids are happy.
And most of the time we are living at peace with one another
Sooo majority over minority
I miss the sparkle I used to have for him. However finding the sparkle for me is so much better but harder, more work
Which is difficult for me but beautiful in a way I never would imagined
Good night -NH