Yeah, Charles and I talked last night
I told him all I have told you the past weeks and well cheers to him he wasn’t defensive and was open at letting me process all my thoughts.
He was happy I was talking to him
Really if I wasn’t married to an adulterer I would claim I have found the one I could grow old with.
I asked him are you truly willing to wait for me? I mean it could take me 20 years to figure out if I am committed to you. Are you seriously willing to wait for that?
He said I’m still here
And then I asked him if he thinks it’s humorous what he did to me. Does he enjoy stringing me along? And then be like Sike!! (Yes I still use that term on occasion)
Example why let your affair partner watch your kids while you go to marriage counseling with your wife?
I wanted to know does he find pleasure in fooling me on purpose?
He denied being that person
He says he understands why I would see things that way but that is not how he saw it at the time
Is this one big scam???
So I can fall for him again and then be like some Prince Hans out of Frozen.
Also I’ve been seeing the doc once a month to change eating habits am told him about my stress levels as a child and now. I told him about affair and nearly broke down crying. Not to blame Charles but it is a factor in my life now. I really thought I was over crying telling people. I’m not I guess.
Surprised I could get into a counselor tomorrow that my doc recommended.
So there you have it I’m acknowledging I’m struggling, I want to figure out my binge eating and manage my emotions when it comes to my marriage and myself