I don’t have one..
I recently was with a beautiful woman who I cherish with 5 blessings all her own.
She is a blessing to me oh how I enjoy her.
What I have to say I don’t enjoy is her take on marriage for me sometimes.
She suggests a renewing of vows.. her husband did it secretly for her set up a vow renewal
How precious it is..
It’s her anniversary and I am so overjoyed for them..
But she just would not let up about the vow renewal once it got brought on..
I hope my face didn’t show.. the disappointment I have as a marriage..
I didn’t want to burst her bubble..
But as she celebrates the other half of her soul..
I start to focus on what I don’t have instead of what I do.
No I do not have a marriage I am proud of or even want to continue because of so many reasons personally..
I’m selfish, I’m shallow, I’m self-centered and feel I’m too broken to be in any kind of romantic relationship..
But here I am..
There are no time-outs with a family who needs you..
I’m glad there aren’t anyway..
Please Lord let me focus on what I have now..
That’s all that matters..
Even though I still cry over spilt milk at times.. what I have right now..
A full tummy on a great lunch..
Smiles, a little bit of sunshine, a cushy bed to lay my head..
3 beautiful girls watching me constantly..
The boy is camping and I will see him tomorrow..
Here’s to a full day..
Love you all