The last couple of days I missed him.
I truly did.
As a person to just cut someone out of their lives this has been such a growing experience for me.
Because I one did get to cut someone out of my life Kendra
And I didn’t and won’t ever even if I leave Charles he’s never cut out completely
The children are so happy to have him home
I am more relaxed hugging him felt nice.
I’m sure he will say something stupid again. Like the whole responsibility thing or because he’s still growing into a loving man least that is what he’s showing me he’s trying to do.
I’m enjoying time with him and enjoying time with myself. While he was gone the kids and I had a fabulous time.
I’m feeling definitely more positive about life when he and I are talking. Not talking to him is more work, so is the anger.
And yes there are plenty of things to be angry about. And yes I still do hate him if we strip all the layers of what I’m trying to build here
My family and a partnership because we are looking to visit Kansas next year.
I am changing and Charles is changing.
I did talk with him about the responsibility thing. At least I think I did.
I will again.
Times like these I wouldn’t ever think being single and sharing out kids is ever an option
One of these days I’m sure I’ll get it together.. even if that day is on my deathbed 😂😂😂😂