While driving in alongside the Channel the beauty was mesmerizing. I thought I took pictures but I didn’t.
Anyways while coming home from the car repair shop I was thinking how much I have changed.
The revenge I sought for Charles hurting me. The want for him to hurt too.
What a crazy vicious cycle.
Anyways I thought as I got to have no choice in having an adulterer for a husband. Charles has no choice to the person I have become. He has no choice in the wife he will get ever anymore. Just like he broke his covenant with me, the collateral damage of the affair (too many to name) I have moved on from him.
Yes I’m still married to him
But he doesn’t have a hold on me like he used to. He isn’t that big of a deal anymore. I used to be all google eyed and starry thinking about him. I rarely think about him.
I do pray for him and want good things for him but he isn’t the big act he once was.
I doubt he will ever be.
Anyways just me rambling on time to get some shut eye
Until next time