Soooo don’t fall out of your chairs or anything but I am wearing a ring…
I really shouldn’t set myself up for such trivial things like I will never statements like wear a ring again😂😂😂
Or I would never stay married to a cheater 😂
It’s nothing really the rings cost I got a pack at Walmart for $2.88 cents for like 5 I think
They are just plastic rings and will just get me used to the idea I guess. Of acceptance that I am married.
Happily married, excited to be married
😂😂😂 no but from the outside we put on a good show.
Because we are adults and we have 4 adorable, sweet children and we raise them together. I do like him I think. Being married to him was one of the worst decisions of my life and I look at kid pictures of myself and apologize for treating her like crap. I’m so sorry for not caring about me and falling for such a weak man. Allowing myself to make excuses for such a weak man.
Anyways he’s so much fun now that he got the chance to stomp on two families, two marriages, and me as a person.
Kind of strange how that works.. and how I am still in this writing that but I am here
Stronger, kinder, and I am working on knowing my worth. Being extremely happy with me and I hope to not ever settle to be in any sub-standard relationship again.
I also no longer wish death upon each of them. I do sometimes want to be able to watch terrible things happen to them. To see them suffer but as I grow I’m learning that wanting that for them does nothing for me.
Also to let them go.. they are not worth thinking about in such a manner because truthfully thinking that way shows no grace, mercy, or compassion.
Did they for me? No. For our families? No.
And no I don’t think I’m a bigger person or better. I am faithful something neither of them can ever be in their current marriages . But I have no reason to wish them ill. Why?
Because it’s over. My marriage to such a douche is over. Our friendship over.
In April it will have been 4 years since this all went down. I want to be able to walk well myself, know my self-worth and carry myself in a manner biblically for myself and children.
I can’t do that keeping bad blood because it poisons me. I know it does. I didn’t realize it then but I see now.
Lately I’ve been wanting to get away and take a breather from this life. For some reason I wanted to get away with Charles. But there is no way I’m letting that happen. I need to get away myself.
Funds are tight lately so not sure I can make that happen but we will see.
No Kansas trip this year.
In other news
I am watching my calories so we will see if my weight will go down like I want.
I am learning and focusing on the good in my life and me. I want to help others too.
Not sure how but for now I’m just taking things slow❤️❤️❤️