I once commented to someone how my life is like the Maury show now and without Jesus it could quickly become Jerry Springer in a heartbeat.
I won’t divulge much because honestly my mother cheated and I remember hearing mean things about my Mom. I want my kids and my ex-BFF’s kids who are still young not to have to find out anything about who or what their parents have done at Sunday school, school, around town, or from others besides their Mom or Dad.
So all parties have kids. All parties for right now are choosing to stay together.
I won’t use my name and only probably post videos and pictures of me in a mask, or something. Not because I’m ashamed, but I don’t want to hurt anyone believe it or not I love my husband and I still love my ex-BFF, her husband, and her precious kids. (But I do still have tons of hate and anger too, way more than love right now)
Hate and anger like mine not only ruins families but can damage reputations, deter healing, and that is why I know my hate has to go. Because I don’t want to regret hurting the wounded already, or the innocent. I know I have hurt my husband in ways I could never imagine while processing this affair. I know this hate and anger will continue to change my character and turn me into something I’m not. I am willing to have Jesus help me and even while I feel it’s fake at times to choose love, I need to, not just for my kids, but for myself.
What’s that saying “Hurt people, hurt people”.
So here’s to the experiment.. I hope it’s a good one and maybe if you are in a similar position we can do this together.