Yup it was more logistics and I didn’t prepare in their certain way but this doesn’t mean I don’t know how to code.
Which was what the interviewer thought and that was very discouraging.. it was just many things went wrong in that interview I didn’t prep on the site I was supposed to prep in, I couldn’t use the solution I created it was not what I had envisioned. But I cried and moved on.. I may get a second chance. Who knows it did devastate me but I live on to create another day that I love.
I’m back in therapy again. I just can’t stand Charles again.. also my new therapist is an old man.. why would I do that to myself well that was the first available appt and I was a mess
He wasn’t terrible but I’m not sure he was what I’m looking for.. anyways I was listening to affair podcasts awhile back ago and the thought just bothers me that this couple who claim they are great now and talk about affairs and help others they say..
And one of the things they wanted betrayed to come to terms or acknowledge is that our stories are similar not many deviate and that there should be some comfort in that. Our spouses activities are not unique.
But I don’t find comfort in it and I don’t think our stories should feel so lumped together
I think it is just a way to dismiss our stories and that does not sit right with me
Because while their activities are completely unoriginal our stories are not, neither is our pain, how we handled the trauma and how we carried it and continue to carry it. No matter what that looks like for all of us.
Happiest of Weds