Headed to Seattle and things have been good
I tried to set up an appointment with a therapist and turns out she is on leave until the beginning of the year
Crazy but I just figured a closed door and not right now moment.
I am starting to set up an appointment with a nutritionist since I eat like a juvenile 🤣🤣🤣
Getting weekly massages and enjoying life
Charles and I have been getting along quite nicely
I can’t explain how good things are because it just feels good
Which puts me in a panic because well
I have felt this way before and my storm was already hitting I just didn’t know it
I feel odd when things are going well because I wonder if this is the moment where I will get sideswiped again
What terrible thing is lurking??
Trauma ahh you sneaky thing
My brain has been reworked however I wonder how this will play out
How will I rewire my brain? And what will that look like?
Yesterday I lost my mouth guard because I have brexism. I was scared because I can’t sleep without it
I can but the migraines locked jaw come sooo choose my poison I guess
And Charles helped me look everywhere
Even when I couldn’t look anymore because I was just crying and sad
He kept looking
I was in bed looking up doctors in Seattle who could make a night guard in a day and Charles finally came to bed
We snuggled and heard a thump
My night guard was somehow in our freshly made bed it was weird but great
We had a great rest of the night
At least I did
He truly does so much for me now and well I am thankful but also suspicious
And that is troubling but okay too
If that makes sense
I just hope I could reach the masses and say cheating on your spouse isn’t worth it.
It breaks so much
And even if the cracks are filled and put together with gold
Doesn’t ever show a put together plate always a broken one 😓😓😓